Of heels and feeling like a heel

I shan't keep it a secret anymore..

Have you ever tried being a goalpost?
You read that right, goalpost, not goalkeeper. If you want a first-hand experience, ask Hani and Azreen. They have been there, done that. The only hitch is that they did not do it voluntarily. They were at the wrong place at a wrong time apparently because this striker was in one of her 'moods'.

The striker being me of course.

The story went like this,
Hani and Azreen were walking together down the corridor. They were like peas in a pod. Like B1 and B2 of 'Bananas In Pyjamas'. The sky was blue and the soft wind was like a mother's caressing hand. Life is beautiful for Azreen and Hani when suddenly an object came flying with a velocity of 100km/h towards them. The object flew between Hani's face and Azreen's head. Hani stopped dead in her track. Azreen, who only seconds ago was chattering away happily was struck dumb. Then, when both had recovered from their shock, they turned to look at the 'flying object' now lying in its battered state on the cold floor.

A high heel.

No, a full 2-inches wedge to be specific.

Slowly, they turned to look at their assaulter...

And there was me.
Me, with fire in my eyes and a grimace on my face.

Okay, full stop.

Now we rewind to a few minutes before the 'flying wedge' incident happened.
Miss Say announced that class is dismissed. A girl went out of the class with a handphone clasped tightly in her hand. Bubbling with anger and exasperation, she made a phone call and talked for one whole minute before she finally snapped and ended the conversation. Now ballistic, she tried to keep her anger in check. But, oh how unbearable it was, for she had been keeping her anger inside for days. She paced the corridor with fury in every step she took. She paced and paced and paced aimlessly until suddenly she came to realise that her right wedge was no longer under her foot. Staring ahead she saw Hani and Azreen rooted to the spot a few metres in front of her with 'it' lying on the floor not far from where they stood.

Oh.

=__=

I'm sorry dear Hani and Azreen!!!! Believe me, i did not mean to make you two the goalposts to my flying footwear. I could not believe i did it too. It was almost an involuntary action.

All i can say is, put the blame on my Bugis heritage that somehow gives me (and my whole family) the tendency to throw things when angry and blame that someone who caused me to go she-hulk like that.
To my friend who caused this outburst of temper, I seriously care for you but HONESTLY, stop clinging on to me like a LEECH!!!!!! Just stop! Please start treating me like a friend, instead of a boyfriend because i am sooo NOt.your.boyfriend.
Come on lady. 10 missed calls in a day is unhealthy. If my number could not be reached, it means I'm seriously in the middle of something for God's sake.
With a friend who behaves like this, I don't even need a jealous, needy boyfriend. *sigh.....*

I feel like a heel though.
Lesson learned: When angry, it's best to remember God and perform the ablutions or 'wudhu' as the Muslim say it.


p/s: To Hanibucks and Baskin azira, I give u my deepest apology. You were the innocent bystanders. Now we have found a new weapon for 'Bowling for Kbu' and it's not a gun.


High heels are deadlier. =__=

looking from that window.

I was feeling ecstatic throughout the day.

I went to sleep the night before with a smile on my lips and a fast beating of the heart. My joy could not be contained. Anticipation kept me from sleeping but when i did finally fall asleep, my dream was one that made me open my eyes the next morning with traces of smile that lingered on.

Mid day. And I was still heady with the joyful feelings I had inside. Even chocking on a sharp odour that stung the nose and made my eyes water in one of the classes had zero effect. I was immuned.

The sky darkened. Night fell. With a child-like demeanour, i waited impatiently at the front door. My cellphone rang. Once, then twice. But there was no need to answer that call, because i could see them from the spot where i stood. Like billions of fireworks that went up, up and away to the scattered stars above, that was how i felt when i greeted them. We laughed a little, we talked a little. What lasted for an hour felt like seconds. In a blink of an eye, they had to set out for their journey again.

"Send my regards to Nadiah. Have fun in Bandung!"

I said with enthusiasm I did not feel. A quick hug and pecks on the cheeks, then they were gone.

With heavy steps i climbed the stairs, then i went straight to the window and saw my father driving the car out of the gate.

Cold metals pressed on my cheeks, cooling them. However,something warm trickled down that coldness and my shoulders shook with the force of trying to keep it all inside.

They left me with a clear box filled with water. I peeked inside and saw a green little creature nibbling on a floating piece of cabbage. I sighed and thought,

"If a tortoise is the closest thing i can get now as a reminder of my own flesh and blood, then i shall cherish it with all my heart."

Back from a deep slumber, a sudden gush of chill air blew from the wide window. I opened my eyes to the sound of a steady drip, like a piano staccatto.
Hasty, because i was running late for class, i ran out with the cold wind blowing on my face. The smell of wet grass permeated the air as heaven's tears soaked my blouse wet.
Small drops of clear water on my spectacles obscured my vision. My left foot, landed in a patch of sticky soil. Swearing, i tilted my head to regard the heaven above.
Above, it was as if a painter had painted the pure, white clouds with too many combinations of colour, that only the darker ones stood out. Grey, black and hazy purple.
Glancing again at the ticking device on my right wrist, i took big steps in my heels as a song from Barry Manilow sounded in my head.
"Raindrops keep falling on my head, they keep falling....."
Finally, upon reaching a shelter from receiving the generous pearl-like gifts from the sky above, a thought popped in my mind.

"I need Nescafe."


p/s: I'm no e.e cummings. So, forgive my not so creative literature.

~nad~

be spontaneous

This week, i was told that i should be more spontaneous.
This was told to me after i had delivered my 3 minutes and 40 sec long speech. *sigh*
I realised that there was a hint of truth in what Mr. Derick said. For a person who talks a lot all the time and almost about every matter there is to talk about, spontaneity works best for me when the time comes to deliver a speech. Maybe i was trying too hard- i ended up making one whole page of speech, and tried in vain to memorise it, but in the end i could hardly even remember anything i wrote! Hahaha... The irony is, sometimes things work better for me when i wasn't even trying too hard. Sometimes, that is. Most of the time however, my spontaneity only spells more trouble for me.


My friends and i decided to go to a bazaar one day during the fasting month last year. We were so confident that we could figure out the way to the bazaar ourselves. Consequently, without really giving much thought about it, the three of us took bicycles to get there. Our optimism and spontaneity backfired. We got lost, but we kept on going! (Going back home without fried kuey teow and murtabak for breaking fast was most definitely OUT of the question. It never even crossed our minds.) After a few phone calls, and direction from a shop keeper around that area, we successfully found our way to the bazaar! Yaay!
We even ran into the boys from house 16.
However, nothing had ever prepared us for the state of the bazaar.
It was... pathetic, i think. The bazaar was right beside a huge ditch, and there were run down houses opposite the huge ditch. We did not expect the bazaar to be in a run-down area. We didn't even think there could be a slum in the middle of Bandar Utama, for god's sake.


Worse still, men around us kept giving creepy stares at us. Did we really look that out of place? Or, were they just being creepy? Man, travelling with just a bunch of girls is hard! And quite unsafe i have to say......Especially in places such as THIS.
The worst part however, was when i lost the key for my bicycle chain. There was noooooo way i was going to leave that bicycle at that place. (The bicycle was not even mine, and that made the problem more complicated.)
It was getting dark. We were starving and weary from cycling. Aaannnd it had started to drizzle. I was becoming frantic and i thought,
"Great..... Even the weather is against me.. Why oh, why???"
The boys from house 16 was our ray of shining light. Our sole hope.
THANk God they helped us to get through the whole thing.

In conclusion, only be spontaneous at an appropriate situation. After that incident, i thought to myself, "Never Again."