japanese story

i actually like japanese story.

how weird is that?


i have to admit, it was not a love at first sight for me. because when i first saw the movie,i was a bit CONFUSED.
like when hiromitsu died, i could not really fathom what was happening.
you could say that i was more shocked and totally in disbelief when hiromitsu died,more so than Sandy as if i was the one having an affair with him and have an emotional attachment to him!
i knew that he was going to die in the end,(my friends kind of foretold me beforehand),
but i DID NOT expect him to die from diving into a billabong, IN his swimming trunk, WHEN Sandy's bimbotic and excited laughter still echoing in the air at the time of the incident!! (it's so tragic, it made me laugh out loud thinking about it)

*sigh* how twisted i am to laugh at tragedies and not at jokes.

sick

sick

sick

however, after looking through the questions asked about japanese story,
and the discussion in class,
i find it rather............

beautiful and romantic, in a way.

there is certainly nothing romantic about getting involved with a married man,
and there's nothing beautiful about a death of a loved one,
but i did wonder,
if hiromitsu had lived, and went back to japan to his family,
i WOULD really hate the movie then.
the fact that he died, in love with Sandy and so changed from being rigid and reserved to someone who is expressive and i think, true to himself finally
is kind of a perfect ending.

it's romantic that the love he and Sandy share is like forbidden love.
they were so wrong for each other, it's only right that they deserve each other.

oh, and there's one more thing.
in class, mr derick said this,

"you should see the beauty in flaws"

i like this idea of seeing something more than the exterior,
of understanding something in depth rather than being discriminating from what we can see only from the surface .
i think i like it so much because i agree that nothing is ever what it seems like.


in art class, i study colours,
and pink, is not really pink.
it's the mixture of red and white,
and other tints of pink may be combinations of rose and white, magenta and white or even orange and white.
so you see, there's even orange, in the colour pink.
my point is,you look at a colour,
and you decided straight away that it's, let say PINK,
but it's not pink.
it's red.
it's also white.
it's magenta.
it's burgundy.

so you see, mr derick,
i actually do understand the concept of stripping an issue layer by layer,
i just have problem writing it down and constructing it so that
it is comprehendable and understandable.
*sigh*
god help me with structuring essays.
i'm bad at organizing things or ideas even.

i'm a messy person, or, should i say,

messed up???

(i like japanese story for God's sake!)